>Kanaya: Panic

[chastesaw]

[Phone]

*Kanaya's voice sounds as precise and collected as ever... for the most part. If someone knows her very, very well they might be able to hear that she's speaking slightly faster than normal.* Hello, everybody.

I hope that the adolescent populace (and perhaps some of the adults as well) enjoyed themselves at the hiveapproaching soiree this past weekend, and that they all learned valuable lessons whether personal or otherwise. For example, I am now aware that it is in poor judgment to trust human beverages no matter how sweet and fruitlike they may smell.

It was heartening to see the combined attendees make some attempt at "cleaning up," so to speak, and I would like to remind you all that there is no reason to cease caring about your appearance simply because there is no formal event to attend. This may have been a good start but I dearly hope that you will all continue going forward.

If you need sound advice on the matter I will gladly render it.

[Private to Karkat 1338 Benny Road]

*And here, Kanaya sounds more outright distressed.* Karkat? Karkat, are you there? I believe I have found myself in a rather severe dilemma and I'm not altogether certain how to proceed.

I can't really offer any explanations for my thoughts at the time, if I was in fact thinking anything at all, but I kissed her. Momentarily. For a brief fleeting instant that might as well not have existed except that I am positive it did.

This has become a very precarious scenario.

*Kanaya believes she has just phoned Karkat. She has, in fact, phoned his entire house.*

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[chastesaw]

I was acting rather oddly and not at all like myself following consumption of that human fruitbeverage. Rose Lalonde was ensuring that I would sit with her and not find myself running off into a troublesome situation, which looking back on it would prove to be very ironic.

We conversed at length and I began to find myself very fascinated by her. And then I kissed her. And then I absconded forthwith.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Did she kiss you back?

[chastesaw]

It was a very quick kiss. A peck, perhaps.

But maybe.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

So at least she's not repulsed by the idea. That's something.

Have you talked to her since?

[chastesaw]

No, I haven't. It's entirely possible she would rather not speak to me ever again.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Or it's entirely possible she feels awkward about it, too, and she doesn't know if you'll want to talk to you.

Look, I know you don't know how to feel about her and you didn't want this to happen, but it doesn't have to be a big deal. It's just a kiss. I've kissed a lot of people I didn't ever mean to kiss.

[chastesaw]

It was an unintended cross-species kiss to a girl I find more than a little troubling and occasionally in the realm of bothersome, while I was (and remain) completely and wholly unsure of my feelings on an entire plethora of matters that are all relevant to the situation at hand.

And I don't even know if she's gay or a lesbian. So I think I am well within my rights to consider this a deal approaching the "big" end of the spectrum.

But I will want to hear those stories at a later date regardless.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Look, can I admit something to you? If you swear you will never tell anyone? Because it's sort of humiliating and I don't ever want to go into it again but maybe it will shed some light on the situation. I don't know.

[chastesaw]

Of course, Karkat. What is it?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Okay, so, uh...my original intentions with respect to trolling the humans may not have been as strategically oriented as I let on.

It may have been more about a spectacularly ill-advised hate crush, and I may have been so transparent about it that...well, there's a reason why I had the human orientation rules explained to me.

The whole thing was just jaw droppingly stupid, I don't even think I really felt that way about him, but I was caught up in a baseless romantic notion, and...the point is, my efforts after that point in insisting no one pursue anything with any of the humans might have been largely influenced by my desire to distance myself from that particular encounter.

The truth is, there are some awkward aspects and plenty of room for cross-species misunderstandings, but overall their concept of redrom at least isn't that different from ours, it's probably not such a big deal.

[chastesaw]

*A pause.* Karkat, you're telling me that our entire interactions with the humans were birthed from your caliginous flirtations with one of the boys?

That's.

Well, to be perfectly honest, do you mind if I admit I find it somewhat amusing in retrospect?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Go ahead, be my guest.

[chastesaw]

Oh, good.

Because, speaking in the utmost sincerity, it is kind of funny to think that it all started that way, if I must be completely open. And I mean no offense by that in the least.

...but it does put things slightly in perspective.

Do you think our kinds really are compatible? Strictly speaking from a flushed perspective.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

How should I know? I'm not an expert in what they do. So far, I haven't seen any glaring issues aside from the orientation thing.

[chastesaw]

*There's a quiet sigh.* I hadn't asked her that before I all but fell on her lips; I suppose mistakes beget mistakes.

You know, I really thought I had put rom issues with dangerous girls behind me for a while.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Well, she's not as bad as Vriska.

It's an awkward situation, sure, but it doesn't have to be bad. I'd give her space a few days and then apologize, tell her you had too much punch. I'm sure she'll get that, and at least it'll clear the air.

[chastesaw]

It would certainly be a feat for her to manage if she were.

I suppose you're right. Though actually to be perfectly honest I currently feel like burying my head in a mound of pillows, blankets and other soft things and never speaking with her again.